Happy Birthday and missing you always!!! / Gail (Mom)
Well, my little baby girl, you will soon by 19 years old. This is the 3rd birthday that I will not be able to spend it with you, only in my heart. I never in a million years would have dreamed that I would have to bury you at 16 years old. My life has changed so much and I don't think it will ever be the same again. I carry the pain of losing you in my heart everyday. I haven't stopped living, but sometimes it gets really hard to carry on. But with the grace of God's wonderful heart and hands he picks me up and carries me to where I need to be. I thank Him everyday for that. I know that you are safe in his arms and that is all I need. I miss you and love you so much. As you know, I have alot going in my life right now, sometimes I wonder if I can go on or not but I've been through the worst, and that was when I had to say goodbye to you in your casket and then watch them send you into the ground. A parents worst nightmare!
So much has happened since you have been gone, Abby and I live alone and she's ready to have my first grandchild, Cheyenne Dawn, I cannot wait for her to get here, 3 more weeks to go. I already love her so much. I'm praying for blonde hair and big blue eyes, but I think she will look like her daddy, Phillip. That's ok, he's a handsome young man who loves Abby very much and will be such a great father and dad. It's so hard to believe that our little Abby is going to be a mom, she's gonna be such a wonderful one. She's already been one to her friends since she found out she was pregnant! I know I raised you both right so I have no fears of her being a mom. Her and I are so close now, we both miss you so much. We laugh alot and always say, remember when Kendra did this? We have talked a couple of times about what you would be doing right now if you were still with us, we said you would be going to college, living with some of your friends, acting like you are so much older, but always coming back home to get money from me for gas and McDonalds.
Well, I've talked enough on here, I better be going. I hope you have such a wonderful birthday - Tell Ally, Chance and Bunny and Aunt Rose that I said Hi and that I love them. Oh, and one more thing, thank God for always being beside me and helping me through my life, I'm really needing him right now and I know you have some pull up there in Heaven so make sure you tell him that I really need some extra help and guidance. Plus keep extra care of my family and friends! I love them all so much!
I love you Kendra and I miss you soooooo much! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mom
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